Sunday, February 27, 2005

I'm not good on weekends :(

I'm not sure why, I find weekends harder to stick to eating properly. Saturday was my rest day and I started out okay - until we went to Q&T's. Then I had a baileys gilde, chips and dip, m&ms and a caramello egg.


I think what I should of done, was sat on the couch - rather than on the chair next to the food. But I know now. We ended up crashing in the spare bed - and I woke up at nine this morning, set the dogs on the Pandyr to wake him, and we rushed home and I did my Pump class and my crosstrainer.

So I guess its not all bad.

Kilos lost: 4 CM's lost: N/a Gym Classes this week: 4+2PT Session

Friday, February 25, 2005

I'm not going to beat myself up over this - I started out okay yesterday - forced down a bit of toast, met my trainer at the gym, did 20 minutes on the rowing machine and some tricep, back and chest work, then started work a bit later.

By the time I got home last night I was knackered - turned on the element to heat some water for dinner - wandered off - about five minutes later, smelt something really really bad - walked back into the kitchen and realised I had turned on the element that had the jug on it. So melted the fuck out of the jug - and the worse part - I did the same thing last week. So now our regular jug and our spare jug are munted beyond belief, and boy does plastic smell when you heat it up!

After that little drama, I thought I'd stay away from the oven, so I ordered a small vege pizza and had two and a bite slices, and left the rest for the Pandyr. Thats not so bad, is it?

Kilos lost: 3.3 CM's lost: N/A Gym Classes this week: 3+2PT Session

Wednesday, February 23, 2005


So this morning I slept in a little and had to bike in against heavier traffic than I'm used to. I did okay though - so I guess I'm getting more confident.

It was Pump class tonight - and afterwards I am now supposed to hit the cross trainer for 20 minutes - doing a minute on level 5, then going hard out for 30 seconds on level 8, then back to a minute on level 5, and so on.

I wasn't sure if I was going to do it/be able to do it - and if I was going to be able to manage the ride home - but I gave it a shot and I MADE IT! I was thinking about doing 10 minutes, but when I got to there, I thought another five - then I got there and thought hey - its only five more - and kicked ass. Gabby had to wipe the sweat off my forehead at one point - and went all hyper and enthusiastic coach at me - which made me laugh heaps.

Personal trainer again in the morning - and nutrition seminar tomorrow night. I must try and keep away from the scales though - but its hard. I don't want to disapoint myself but I want to see how I'm doing!

Kilos lost: 3.3 CM's lost: N/A Gym Classes this week: 3+1PT Session

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

Goal Setting...

So last night I had my goal setting seminar. I think I've got some realistic goals (1.5 kilos in four weeks - 7.5 by the end of the challenge), and I've promised myself something shiny if I succeed, and to post my 'before' photo if I fail. If that doesn't spur me on, nothing will. I'm too nervous to even LOOK at the before photo - heh.

I want to thank everyone who has visited and/or posted comments or emailed me. You all rock (but hey thats why you're my mates) and don't forget to come back!

Tonight I hit Combat - started out okay, but by the end, I'm taking it low impact and my face is redder than a fire truck (which is a little embarassing). Trudz and I were over by the mirrors - which I think makes me work that little bit harder (plus its less crowded over that side). I know I'd prefer to be as far away from them as possible - but it helps with technique. (or perving - take your pick).

Kilos lost: 3.3 CM's lost: N/a Gym Classes this week: 2+1PT Session

Monday, February 21, 2005

First Day Hypers.

Welcome to day one.

Today is the starting point of my new body, my new attitude and a new focus. It's day one of the les mills 12 week challenge - and while I'm enthusiastic and keen to get my fat ass moving, I'm also nervous. Silly, but true.

Met my new personal trainer today, and she rocks. She chucked me on a cross trainer for 20 minutes after talking to me about my plans and goals, and doing the nasty weight and measurment checks. She's given me a really good plan to follow, and I'm going to do it. I also sent the following email out to my friends :- and I know that
they're all going to help to keep me going.

Hi guys

Some of you know I'm doing the Les Mills 12 week challenge. It's a personal commitment to changing my life around - getting fit, (hopefully) losing some of this damn weight, and generally working on myself, not only on the outside but inside too.

Start date is today - I've been measured, weighed, body-fatt'd (that was scary), had my blood pressure, blood sugar checked, I've bought a bike, fired my first personal trainer and now got a woman (who understands PcOS), set up a training plan for this week - and tonight I have my first 'goal setting' seminar.

So why am I telling you this? Well, mainly its because I want you guys to be on my crew. That is - support-crew. I know that I cannot do this on my own - that at times I will struggle, that I will try and get out of going, that I will be lazy, that I need a push. Or a shove. That I will make excuses - and while this week I am excited and energised, that at times I will struggle - I do not expect this to be easy - I have over 40 kilos that I want to lose - and this is the way I am going to kick start it.

So what can you do to help? Well, you can visit here It's a website I created years ago, that I was ocassionaly writing in. I've just overhauled it - and now I'm going to be writing about the challenge (and I'll be writing at least once every two days). By clicking on the comments (at the end of every post) you can send me a short note of encouragement, or pushiness, or just a hello), but not just the one time - you have to keep coming back! You can also email me - or you can text me.

So why should you help me? Uh, because I'm your friend. You guys should want me to have a better quality of life - you know I'll be a much happier person if I'm eating right and excercising - and I know I'll be a better person for it.

So guys, this is it - I'm actually serious this time - and I want you to
help me stay serious. I hope you can help.

Take care

So guys, thanks so much for emailing me back, adding to the comments (its so exciting when you get a comment), and being so supportive. I hope - no, I know I will see this through, especially now I have your support and enthusiasm. You all rock - but hey - you wouldn't be mates of mine if you didn't :)

Kilos lost: 3.3 CM's lost: N/A Gym Classes this week: 1 + 20XTrainer

Thursday, February 17, 2005

I made the change.

After thinking about it a lot, I switched trainers. I do feel guilty - I imagine that it's hard to build up a reputation as a good PT, but I wasn't comfortable with him - which would put me off. I'm better off seeing a woman (who will understand better about the mood swings, bad bleeding and general other crap that goes with PcOS), and will probably be able to help push me that little bit more. I'm meeting her 7am Monday which should be good.

I had my photo done today - in my ugly tight green t-shirt that doesn't hide a thing, and my usual gym shorts. Then I did a Balance class and rode home. I actually find Balance quite hard - its hard to get into some of the positions, when you have some extra curves, but I'm trying!

I just worked out that I have now been to the gym five days in a row - and tomorrow after Pump - will make six. I've ridden my bike three times (since sunday), and today after Balance on the way home, I actually went up a block cause I was enjoying myself. Weird.

Kilos lost: 2.3 CM's lost: N/A Gym Classes this week: 5+1PT Session

Wednesday, February 16, 2005

I forgot to add...

That at 1.30am this morning as I wandered back from the toilet (damn water) The Pandyr had just got home from work and mentioned as I staggered by "I'm really proud of you for riding your bike to work". Awwwww, bless him.

To change or not to change...

Today I had my bloodwork done by the Nurse for the challenge. My cholesterol is a little high - but its not overly bad and my blood glucose and pressure are fine. So thats a bit of relief. Then I went to Pump, and man are those squat tracks killing me. I think thats going to be one of my goals - to do a whole squat track, no stopping, and to go as low as possible.

I'm still debating what to do about my trainer... but I have an appointment with him tomorrow, so maybe I should just ask him straight up if he needs to check my membership card to see how much I come? I'm a bit wary because he is a young guy, and one of my motivations for doing this is that fact that I want kids and at this point, my fertility is so fucked up (because of PcOS), that without losing weight, I'm not gonna get them, and I feel embarassed about saying this to him - I also think he may be a little fat-phobic - hmm wonder if I should ask him straight up about that?? heh.

I know that PT's make their money by the amount of sessions they can get their clients to do - but surely you should think about what the client wants as well? He never really asked me, and I have to say, that thinking about the half-assedness of my session the other day - I'm a little pissed off. However, I guess I'll just have to wait (weight) and check tomorrow.

My fifth day in a row at the gym.

Fuck me, I think I'm serious about this, this time.
Kilos lost: 2.3 CM's lost: N/A Gym Classes this week: 4+1PT Session

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

Oh. My. Freakin. God.

This morning, I got up, ate, showered, rode to work(!) (although left to early but less traffic so thats okay), did my day, walked my bike to the gym, did a one hour combat class, and biked home.

I'm freakin exhausted. I can hardly keep my eyes open - I think I'll be cooking tea then going to bed. The combat class was an absolute killer - I forgot how hard it is, but how much I love it - and I do have to take the lower impact options. By the second track I was sweating and puffing, but I'm going back.

Kilos lost: 2.3 CM's lost: N/A Gym Classes this week: 3+1PT session

Monday, February 14, 2005

The first meet. or Meat.

So this morning, I met my personal trainer. He's going to motivate me for the 12 week challenge (if I can afford it), and do all my measurements etc.

It's always interesting meeting trainers. Because I am such an extra curvy woman, I always think they won't believe me when I admit the amount of exercise I do, and I'm kind of sure thats what happened this morning. In saying that - I was doing some squats and I said 'ow' (being pathetic) so the trainer said 'okay two more' but really, I could of gone a little bit harder. I think I'm going to have to 'fess up and say 'look, I'll lie to you - I'll pretend I'm tired, but there's more energy there to burn - I'll say that I'm done, or I need a break - but I don't. You need to push me - I'm being pathetic and pretending.'

It takes time to get to know someone - to get to know how hard you can push them - and if I think my trainer is going to be able to be walked on - then I'll walk right on him. So best to be honest with myself and with him. Next meeting is Thursday - hope he doesn't tell me off!

Kilos lost: 2.3 CM's lost: N/A Gym Classes this week: 2 + 1 PT Session

Sunday, February 13, 2005

My legs hurt.

Not sure if The Pandyr was trying to reverse psychology me this morning, but I got out of bed, ate a semi-healthy breakfast, packed my bag, got on my bike, and rode to the gym.

My legs are so freakin sore now. Actually not my legs as such, but just the tops of my knees. I sweated my way through a Pump class, then got back on the bike, and had a head wind on the way home. YAY. I almost gave up and got off an walked, but I managed to convince myself to keep bloody going. After all, whats the point if I don't challenge myself.

Not sure how I'm going to handle a whole week on the bike - but I'm gonna bloody try.

Kilos lost: 2.3 CM's lost: n/a Gym Classes this week: 2

Saturday, February 12, 2005

Intro Day.

Today was the introduction meeting for the Les Mills 12 Week Challenge. It was pretty interesting - varied group of people there - and two people (previous challengers) got up and spoke - Pat, the guy, looks amazing - he got up to speak, and I thought that it was weird because he looked like a really big guy - but as he spoke, he shed clothing that he used to fit into (and had bulked out with the use of pillows) while they showed photos of him in the background. He was fucking amazing.

The woman that spoke (I forgot her name) was also really cool - she lost 22 kilos over the 12 weeks, and has lost 36 since July last year. I think thats fantastic.

Over the last couple of weeks since signing up, I've been thinking about transport - because I don't drive. And I've been thinking that I should really buy a bike - because I live about 10 minutes bike ride away from the gym. As part of my commitment to the challenge - and because I can't rely on others for rides home (and lets be honest, a cardio workout then a 30-40 minute walk YUCK) - this morning,(before the intro session) The Pandyr took me to Penny's and I got a bike, helmet and lock. All I need now are lights and I'm set to go.

I haven't ridden in many years - I took the bike over to the parking lot - and its true - you never forget how. I might be a bit wobbly on it, but I did it. When we got it home, I was a bit nervous about riding it (still am in fact), but took it for a fang round the block, and I think I'll be fine. Its just cars I need to worry about :)

Kilos lost: 2.3 CM's lost: N/A Gym Classes this week: 1

Friday, February 04, 2005

Feckin Scales.

Every Friday I approach them.

Left foot on. Right foot on. Numbers flashing... up up up up up up up... I wonder if its going to stop before the weight I was last week... or even worse... is it going to go over?

Every Friday I stay the same. I guess thats better than gaining, but its still frustrating. I take my measurements when I get home.

Do you think its possible that your ass can come back - instead of having a merged thigh/ass? Because while my measurements slowly drop from all over - the top of the thigh/under the ass measurement seems to be totally kickin the rest of my body's um ass.

I guess I'll find out for sure. Les Mills challenge intro day is next week. I'm determined to get it into gear. I may be the fattest chick in the class, I might have to take some moves low impact. But I'm there. Sweating. Breathing hard. Burning fat. And I'm not quitting.

Kilos lost: 1.8 CM's lost: N/a Gym Classes this week: 1

Thursday, February 03, 2005


So anyway, ages ago - in fact somewhere round the begining of last year, I bought a pedometer from Weight Watchers.

I finally decided that prehaps I should take it out of the packet and actually use it. Now to get in the healthy zone, you're supposed to do 10,000 steps per day. I do about 2000-4000 depending on if I walk to work.

Thats fuck all.

I thought I walked heaps, but apparently not. So my mini goal for the next two weeks is to try and get up there with more than 5000 steps per day. I might even add it to my pretty sign off.

Oh and for those of you who are wondering - I can't do cm's lost yet, because I don't think I ever measure myself in the same place - so I'm taking my measurements after I weigh in on a Friday, and then doing an average over a month. You'll know by then end of Feb how I'm going.

Kilos lost: 1.8 CM's lost: N/A Gym Classes this week: 2

Wednesday, February 02, 2005


Sometimes I'm so damn lazy. Either I don't write, or I don't gym, or I don't walk, or I just fuckabout and get all mucked up. I've been meaning to fix this blog for ages - Not sure if its working yet, fingers crossed.

Kilos lost: 1.8 CM's lost: N/A Gym Classes this week: 2 + 1 Walk