Thursday, December 23, 2004

I'm exhausted.

Exhausted. I just spend three hours walking around a mall with Sarah. I still haven't finished my christmas shopping, I'm doing dessert this year and I have no idea what I'm making - I have to work tomorrow until 5, The Pandyr has been on night shift so he's been waking me at 2am/3am every morning - he's out now drinking so god knows what time he'll be home - no doubt waking me once again - my feet hurt, my legs hurt - I've had my fucking period for three weeks (GO THE PILL - the Bastard obviously isn't working) I have to see the doctor - ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I need a shot of tequila and some hard out music to dance to.

Friday, December 17, 2004

Why my body sucks.

You know, back when I first started having sex, I was so scared of falling pregnant.

Now, when I want to - I can't.

I see friends babies and my heart physically aches. I've never had that feeling before. Its pretty scary as I've never considered myself to be partically maternal.

I like my life - expensive skincare, a weekend overseas at a drop of a hat (well okay a months planning), being able to drop $30-$40 on books every week, sleeping in with the Pandyr - but pretending the cats are our children just isn't cutting it anymore.

It's scary.

It's scary that I think I'm never going to fall pregnant, that I'll never have the joy of waiting up all night for my child to walk in the door after they've missed curfew - seeing a child's first steps, hearing their first words.

It's late, I'm tired, and I might wake up tomorrow and think 'what the fuck was I typing last night', but I might not.

Tuesday, December 14, 2004


If you haven't seen the show tune in!

I think we're up to the forth episode and its brilliant. Even the pandyr likes it. And he's not into tv.

It's about an English guy and an American girl who meet in London - she flies home, but they have this connection. The filming is brilliant (its shot partly on location), the storyline excellent, and I love the way they screen from his and her points of view.

Sunday, December 12, 2004


You are Fluffy Mackerel Pudding!! You somehow
manage to combine seafood and dessert into your
wonderfully fluffy world. We should all be as
tolerant of New Taste Sensations. And of
big-yolked eggs.

What Weight Watchers recipe card from 1974 are you?

Friday, December 10, 2004

Today... New Zealand stops smoking.

At least, inside.
We've joined the list.
No smoking inside clubs, pubs, resturants and workplace smoking rooms are banned.
Tonight is going to be very interesting out on the town.

Monday, December 06, 2004


What is it about Christmas that drives people crazy? Tarn and I went to a little local mall - basically only good for The Warehouse, and it was packed. No parks anywhere, mad driving in the lot, women with out of control shopping trolleys...

So we went to this tiny mall on the other side of town, and it was great - no wear near as busy and picked up some good bargains, plus they had something I should of bought for Andrew (except I already ordered it from another shop in town - but I'm thinking I should of picked it up anyway).
I need to post my christmas cards out. I need to finish my shopping. argh.

Wednesday, December 01, 2004

Its the first!

The first of December. I have one Christmas present, I have booked my flights to Auckland for my Mum's birthday, I have no spending money for the trip, I have a hens night on the 18th of December, I am disorganised, slightly stressed, and wondering what the hell you buy the boy who is impossible to buy for.
Woohoo. I do have some ideas, but he's so not helpful - He either wants the impossible (Dragons Lair Arcade Game - imported from the states - around NZ$5000), or things that I have no idea of what the are (fangdangled computer part that allows you to *brain switches off* blah snort whistle blah).